The title of today’s post means “frustration” in Portuguese. That’s to explain the state I’m in. So my last post described my frustration with my performance and this weekend unfortunately did nothing to improve that.
I got completely wrecked. I got to class early and PB Steve said let’s go. This roll went 40 minutes and I don’t remember all the details, but I do remember getting tapped…a lot. I got caught in a bunch of arm bars and a few triangles. Some of them came on really quick and I was too slow to react or my defense was really crappy. I was really disappointed in my performance. I just couldn’t get anything to work so that started the sense of frustration.
Maybe I’m being too hard on myself or maybe I’m being a baby, but I think I should be better. And that’s not just better in one area; I should be better across the board. For some reason I feel like I’m regressing. This is my third year of training and I feel like a white belt all over again.
So we started class with the first stand-up technique: how to escape a standing choke hold. An attacker goes to put a two-hand choke hold on your neck. You tuck your chin in, bring your hands up to protect your face in case he tries to punch you. You step step back, lean down and draw a U shape with your upper body to the right or left side to get away from your attacker. Make sure you keep your hands up in case the guys starts throwing. In thinking about it it’s a really important technique to learn.
Then, we moved down to work on several techniques that will help you maintain the mount position. There were too many to note here plus the detail is really intricate. I struggled with some of the movements for a little bit before my brain clicked and things started to work.
Next, we worked on drills where you had to maintain the mount for a period of 3 minutes. The guy on the bottom was allowed to go nuts in order to simulate a street fight. In some instances it was really funny to watch. Some of the guys looked like they were riding mechanical bulls. I did OK with the drills. I think my frustration was getting to me by this point and it affected my performance.
We ended class for the open mat. I partnered up with BB Yosef and completely sucked. I usually cancel him out and control him, but this time I just sucked. I got tapped twice by him in 8 minutes and that shouldn’t have happened. At all. No excuses. It was completely pathetic and embarrassing to write about. I really don’t get a sense that my training partners suffer from the same lack of ability the way I do. I was so frustrated that I just got off the mat, packed my things and left.
I thought when I got my blue belt that things would start to click a little faster and basic techniques would get a little better, but I’m not seeing that. Like I mentioned before I feel like I’m regressing and that is happening while everyone else is progressing. I’m still getting caught in the same things because I keep making the same stupid mistakes. I feel like I can’t put together an effective strategy and that’s very embarrassing because coming up with strategies is part of my day job.
Has anyone else been here? If so, how did you break through it? Any effective strategies will be extremely appreciated.
Here’s my other source of frustration. I saw UFC 126 where Anderson Silva finished off Vitor Belfort with a highlight-reel kick. Silva is my favorite fighter; the guy is just amazing. Yet, I was really frustrated by all the love Belfort was getting. He lost. Why was he getting all this love? Why did we get the hard sell on what a great fighter he is? If he was that good, wouldn’t he have done a better job? Were people worried about his feelings? He’s an adult I think he can man up to defeat and grow from it.
Why wasn’t Silva getting any accolades? Why is there no respect for his ability or what he accomplished? It’s not his fault that Belfort couldn’t take a kick to the face? And it hasn’t been his fault that the UFC has been putting him against a bunch of lackluster fighters. I love Damian Maya, but did anyone really think that he could take Silva? Same goes for Patrick Cote and Thales Leites. These guys couldn’t step to him. Say what you want about Chael Sonnen, but you need to re-look at that fight. I have a feeling that Silva was playing him the entire time.
That’s it. I’m done ranting. Sorry for the long blog post.
Hopefully, I’ll get my head right and have a better training session on Tuesday.
Chau e bom dia!